A simple request

I came across this last night:

If I can't have what I want, let me want what I have.  

Exquisite in its simplicity.
Just let me want that which is mine in this life.
Because of what it gives me, even when I may not understand it now - what the hell its purpose is.

I had an appointment with the ear, nose & throat specialist this morning.
The lump I had in front of my left ear is gone, my mouth better.
There was good news today, because the gods must know that I can bear no more bad tidings for the moment.
And, knowing what I know of disease and death by now, I realize that there is no magic pill that makes everything better overnight.  

After the hospital this morning, I went to the Hema in Breda, sat reading and sipping coffee, thinking of my dad that made me cry in public, then reading trashy novels to escape myself for a while.
Now on, to another long day at work after a night completely devoid of sleep nor rest.



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