A full blood test.
And not just sissy-sized vials, but actual bottles filled with your blood.
Urine.
I'll spare you the details.
Next Friday will be ultrasounds of abdomen and thorax, and chest x-rays.
You read words with question marks next to them:
'Lymphadenopathy'
and
'S.O.L.'
(Space-occupying lesions, better known as freakin' tumours).
Darn curiosity.
And darn Google.
Too much info sucks too.
But I go to bed with Son#1, who heard my snivveling in the shower tonight, and then gave me a back rub a la kid, put toothpaste on my toothbrush and sat smiling, waiting for me to finish.
I feel guilty, as I should.
Life, death and sorrows are part of life.
But so is gladness and felicity of spirit.
Grab onto that light stuff, Self.
And pass it on to three amazing boys.
.
And not just sissy-sized vials, but actual bottles filled with your blood.
Urine.
I'll spare you the details.
Next Friday will be ultrasounds of abdomen and thorax, and chest x-rays.
You read words with question marks next to them:
'Lymphadenopathy'
and
'S.O.L.'
(Space-occupying lesions, better known as freakin' tumours).
Darn curiosity.
And darn Google.
Too much info sucks too.
But I go to bed with Son#1, who heard my snivveling in the shower tonight, and then gave me a back rub a la kid, put toothpaste on my toothbrush and sat smiling, waiting for me to finish.
I feel guilty, as I should.
Life, death and sorrows are part of life.
But so is gladness and felicity of spirit.
Grab onto that light stuff, Self.
And pass it on to three amazing boys.
.
Good to hear that you're being turned inside out by the specialist. And please, do NOT Google in order to keep your sanity!! I keep going back to the mantra 'if something was screaming for action, the specialist would have ordered the x-rays at the spot and wouldn't schedule them a week later.' As long as things can wait, keep breathing. And in all other cases too :-D
ReplyDeleteYou big boy brings tears to my eyes. See what a great kid you are raising!!
I have the very best kid in the universe! But apparently this week-wait IS 'urgent' here in the Styx. The 'urgent' appointment with the internist took FIVE weeks. I shudder to think if something is REALLY wrong! But (as always, cringe cringe) I'm ahead of myself.... Zenzenzenzenzennnnnnnnn :)
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